Part I: Gender Dysphoria & Shame I had what we would consider early onset childhood gender dysphoria; a self-conception of being a boy despite a body that contradicted that. I don’t think I was born with it though; I think it was a response to restrictive female gender roles and a sense that boys had a freedom that shouldn’t be withheld from me. I was a tomboy who grew up in a conservative Evangelical Christian environment and was regularly reminded how girls behave and dress, with the explicit message being I was acting like a boy and that was inappropriate. From my earliest memories the wish to be a boy, or the self-conception of myself as a boy, was inextricable from a sense of shame at feeling that way.
Aaron, your story is so similar to mine, except i fought through the dysphoric feelings and live a fairly weird, separate, outsider life with an awkward and often happily celibate life. It is so amazing to come across someone so relatable, of my age, yet you took a path i often desired but couldn’t philosophically reconcile with feminism. Everything you say about disgust /desire / envy regarding sexed bodies… that is/was my own private delirium, as well!
All your writing is beautiful and frank, thank you! (I am an ASD woman, btw, so i am horrified by this eugenics program against us.) Will read again and share.
No delusion detected. Amazing story! everyone should read this to see an example of a path of insight into circumstances and motivation. For anyone not just gender dysphoric /questioning. The current movement wants to have transing fast tracked legally and medically and that seems impulsive and dangerously cult like.
Thank you for this . Your insights and writing are such an important part of this whole trans narrative. The videos from Gender Dysphoria Alliance are great. I am just sorry that the extreme trans ideology that is being pushed has meant that you have had to speak out instead of just being able to get on with your lives quietly as you were before this madness started.
I also feel so sorry for you that you were so crushed as a child by a culture that did not allow you the freedom to be a mighty adventurous natural girl. What societies and cultures have done to curb, confine and supress women through the ages is heartbreaking.
Young people being indoctrinated in this way is the inevitable result of people like you treating your mental illness with invasive surgery. The difference between sane and insane is the ability to distinguish fantasy and reality. You are still a woman and always will be. And nothing you do will ever disassociate "the good trans people" from the ones grooming young people online into decisions they deeply regret later on in life. The reason for this is simple: if you expect to be treated like a man because of your transition, how can you deny the same privilege to others, simply for having a different reason? They followed the same rule you did. The only way to fight back against "trans trenders" is to take a stand against the entire trans ideology itself. Men are men, and women are women. Anyone who believes otherwise must be treated with therapy and other mental treatments, not mastectomies and penectomies.
Interestingly our developmental pathways seem to be similar. When I was a teenage boy I thought I wanted to be "a lesbian", I now feel this was my own disgust at my male body and internalized homophobia towards the thought that I could be a gay man being projected. As soon as I started my transition as a transwoman I instantly felt my attraction shift towards men, and soon declared I must have been gay all along. Not sure now if it was an "all along" thing or if my orientation changed, my sexual development was stunted so perhaps it just took me a while to figure it out. At this point, I'd only ever date a man or another transwoman (who still has a penis).
Aaron, your story is so similar to mine, except i fought through the dysphoric feelings and live a fairly weird, separate, outsider life with an awkward and often happily celibate life. It is so amazing to come across someone so relatable, of my age, yet you took a path i often desired but couldn’t philosophically reconcile with feminism. Everything you say about disgust /desire / envy regarding sexed bodies… that is/was my own private delirium, as well!
All your writing is beautiful and frank, thank you! (I am an ASD woman, btw, so i am horrified by this eugenics program against us.) Will read again and share.
No delusion detected. Amazing story! everyone should read this to see an example of a path of insight into circumstances and motivation. For anyone not just gender dysphoric /questioning. The current movement wants to have transing fast tracked legally and medically and that seems impulsive and dangerously cult like.
Dope writing as always, Aaron.
Thanks for this. Excellent insights!
Amazing writing and story, Aaron. Your voice is so important x
Thank you for this . Your insights and writing are such an important part of this whole trans narrative. The videos from Gender Dysphoria Alliance are great. I am just sorry that the extreme trans ideology that is being pushed has meant that you have had to speak out instead of just being able to get on with your lives quietly as you were before this madness started.
I also feel so sorry for you that you were so crushed as a child by a culture that did not allow you the freedom to be a mighty adventurous natural girl. What societies and cultures have done to curb, confine and supress women through the ages is heartbreaking.
Young people being indoctrinated in this way is the inevitable result of people like you treating your mental illness with invasive surgery. The difference between sane and insane is the ability to distinguish fantasy and reality. You are still a woman and always will be. And nothing you do will ever disassociate "the good trans people" from the ones grooming young people online into decisions they deeply regret later on in life. The reason for this is simple: if you expect to be treated like a man because of your transition, how can you deny the same privilege to others, simply for having a different reason? They followed the same rule you did. The only way to fight back against "trans trenders" is to take a stand against the entire trans ideology itself. Men are men, and women are women. Anyone who believes otherwise must be treated with therapy and other mental treatments, not mastectomies and penectomies.
Aaron, you’re the best. So grateful for your and Aaron Ks work. Thank you.
Interestingly our developmental pathways seem to be similar. When I was a teenage boy I thought I wanted to be "a lesbian", I now feel this was my own disgust at my male body and internalized homophobia towards the thought that I could be a gay man being projected. As soon as I started my transition as a transwoman I instantly felt my attraction shift towards men, and soon declared I must have been gay all along. Not sure now if it was an "all along" thing or if my orientation changed, my sexual development was stunted so perhaps it just took me a while to figure it out. At this point, I'd only ever date a man or another transwoman (who still has a penis).
Sending admiration and respect from Michele in Melbourne Australia. Your articles/story need to reach so many young people.xx